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Flip the Doldrums

It was one of those really bad nights. The kind that used to plaque me all the time, that I sure the heck haven’t missed. It was followed by a very demanding work day. Compounded by zero sunshine. Which, surprisingly enough,  lead to a long walk at dusk.

No edits, just a blue day

All of this cummulated in a last minute swap out of calendar activities.  I decided today should really be the 15th and will do today’s activity that day.

The true essence of a kindness calendar which allowed me not to push through exhaustion  (more on that later) and allowed me to be kind to myself. Which is exactly what I needed. Indeed it’s probably what a lot of us need right now.

Today’s activity became to smile at myself in the mirror and know that I am doing an awesome job during these difficult times.

Which leads me back to the insomnia. The cause of which, I strongly suspect, is Covid19 related. The numbers here continue to rise. A serging second wave that is far scarier than the first wave ever was, even though it felt like there was more unknowns then. It seems there is no political guts to do a second lock down except in the Maritimes. Although, in all fairness, Manitoba has been locked down but it seems to be too late and the virus is rampant in seniors homes and indigenous communities.

My dream casual retirement job is now full of challenges and stress.  Thankful to be finished teaching for the university and spendinh time in the main OR but still, for the first time, I feel the stress of work again.

Which makes it so important to be kind to myself. To eat comfort food (aka chicken nachos with french fries and guacamole) and drink my favourite ice cold craft IPA. To spend the evening enjoying the Christmas lights around the house and watching a cheerful Christmas movie. To reach out here and know that I have the support of my wonderful readers.

I know that I am not the only one feeling this weight from this second wave. It’s evident at work, in phone calls and in the news. We really do need to band together and stay strong. Find joy in the daily, push outside of your mind set to see the positives  and embrace the quiet of staying home. Look at it this way — all those health care workers and essential service providers don’t have that option.

Oh and laugh. It’s a proven stress reliever. I wonder, is Red Green on YouTube? HM…we’re all in this together, keep your stick on the ice as the man himself says.



I have had a love of the written word for my entire life. It's no surprise that eventually I found a platform where I could write. It's random; sometimes funny, occasionally sad, maybe even at times from anger and I lean towards creative photography and hands on crafts. I have a few blogs that high light these interests.

6 thoughts on “Flip the Doldrums

  1. Very concerning that the numbers continue to rise. I feel for all the health care workers. The whole situation distressing.

    Re:”challenges and stress”…that’s gotta go! Who needs it at this stage of our life! Too many other things to spend time on and enjoy!

    Virtual hugs my friend!


    1. Yes those numbers are so scary and some of those health care workers are friends of yours and mine. When the hell is Moe going to do something instead of nothing?
      It’s a challenge somedays to find the focus on the positives and connecting here on the blog is one of them. Thanks for stopping in, commenting and for the hug.

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  2. Good news. Red Green is on Youtube. I have been not sleeping well too and find myself thinking about the serious S— going on right now. Gotta stop that. Finally in a lockdown here, so hopefully that will ease the burden on the hospital. My son who works in the U of A hospital is now tested every 5 days, so is becoming an old hand at it. Not something you want on your CV. Stay well and sleep well. Bernie. Allan


    1. Yeah Red Green! Sorry to hear that you are struggling as well with sleep. We know that the long term end is in sight but there is still quite some ways to go to reach it. I hope the lockdown in Alberta is followed by one in Sask but don’t even get me started on that. Yes I am know it is becoming very taxing on health care staff and the system. Stay safe Allan. Oh and I slept solid for 10 hours last night (I guess making up for the 2 of the previous night) so that felt wonderful.


    1. Indeed I will. Working on managing things and slept well last night so that helped Jane. I’m a very solar creature so a bit of sunshine would help me immensely but alas grey cloudy day again today. Seems November and December weather flipped this year out here. Thanks for the encouragement and the engagement here on the site.

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