The afternoon sunlight streams through the bedroom window. I’ve chosen this location strictly because of the windows. I am still enjoying natural light, sunshine and rural vistas after so many years working in a windowless dungeon.
I appreciated the feedback on my Deep Abyss post. It helped me realize that I had indeed articulated it well enough that numerous people had good insight into my current gnarly spot. It sounds like I am not the first recently released from the full time work force to encounter this void.
I loved the one comment so much that I used it as the title; Resting in the Void. It does indeed feel like that. The change of pace has allowed for more “resting” time. I am sleeping better and waking up feeling rested; first time in a decade at least. That, in itself, means that resting in this void was necessary.
A second, private comment, had elements worth sharing here. The gist of it was that I could afford to rest on my laurel’s as I had earned it with my consistent compassionate care and attention to detail. So here I am, doing just that. Basking in the moment as well as the sunlight. Basking in the project list that doesn’t have end dates. Basking in Little A time. Doing some of this and some of that.
A couple of other comments strongly suggested volunteering. My regular long term volunteer commitment doesn’t give back ten fold but I can’t jump ship at this moment. I have given some serious consideration to other volunteer activities. I’ve often thought I would love to read for audio books or help struggling children with reading. The written word excites me; always has and always will.
Hm. Maybe I should go read a book….. turns out I have nothing pressing on.
Bernie
