I’m conflicted and torn although I suspect in my heart I know the right answer.
There are tons of stories feed to us a day on various assorted social media and news sites. It can be overwhelming to keep abreast with current events, trends and friends. I’m fairly choosy about what I read but when I saw the headline and watched the trailer I was intrigued by the subject matter.
So do I Embrace where I am (go watch the trailer that’s linked with the word) and accept that my BMI puts me in the obese category (alas that I’m just not taller), running is a challenge with the sac of flour I carry around and that I need to buy some new clothes in this size?
Or do I challenge myself to get back to a healthier goal weight which translates to feeling easier in my own body. That means, for a time period, giving up chocolate, beer, cookies and really watching portions. It means steady consistent exercise. It means my favourite clothes will fit me again. It means being accountable to myself. It means actually doing it and not just talking or writing about it.
I tell myself I’m ok because of the following reasons:
- I’m 57 and on no medications other than the odd Advil and Vit D when I can remember to take it; which truthfully isn’t very often.
- I’m physically active and can go up 7 full flights of stairs at the hospital without stopping. I can lift heavy rocks or heavy patients and keep on moving.
- I’m low risk because I walk every day; with the dogs, commuting to and from work plus at work. I bike and swim semi regularly.
- A few extra pounds is good insulation in case of illness or a wind storm. Hey it’s a true story that I’ve had two patients with broken hips from being knocked over in the wind. This is not happening any time soon to me!
- We eat healthy; growing our veggies and local sourcing most of our meat. Dining out is an infrequent event and I can say truthfully that we rarely ever eat packaged foods. We both love to cook (perhaps that’s an issue!) and consume what we make.
But is all that justification or excuses? If 25 is ok does that make 50 embraceable? Along with that comes the increased risks of
- Heart attack
- Sleep apnea
- Mobility issues
- And the list goes on as the weight piles on……
So after an evening that included brownies and beer we took a shadow selfie. We looked like tall slim models but that’s not the reality. Two friends, both overweight. Do we Embrace where we are and ignore what society says we should look like? Do we fight and claw our way back to a healthier body weight? I’ve done this several times and always seem to yoyo which apparently is very hard on your body. Or do we find balance in holding off more pounds while still enjoying our favourite food and beverages?
I suspect that this answer is different for everyone. I have a theory that age plays a factor in several aspects of it but perhaps not. I have a friend, who at 70+, is working hard to lose some extra weight. Ideal body weight doesn’t protect you from cancer or many other debilitating diseases. I had a soccer mate who was thin and she had a heart attack. The factors for illness aren’t always preceded by a certain body weight or type.
I was recently been nominated on Facebook to put three photos up of myself. This was so women would build up their self esteem rather than tearing it down. My 60+ year old cousin posted three photos of herself. One was on a beach wearing a bikini. This goes beyond my comfort zone of accepting and embracing my body which perhaps is my answer. But does it speak to my own comfort level or what society expects me to look like? More questions with no right answers.
PS If I can find out more about the documentary mentioned above I will be sure to share with everyone where and when it can be seen. The event will probably be followed by a round of beer & brownies!